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Peace be with your taint

A mother and daughter should connect

I never thought to my life, you would have this effect.

We use to laugh and play

Now your'e never here, and have nothing to say.

Every now and then I'll pass you in my car

Shortly there after you are at the bar.

If only you would have tried.

You put the rest of us through hell, always setting us aside.

A mother should and comfort her daughter

Just the very opposite of what you've done.

Now, five years later, you act like nothing's wrong

You've been noting but a bitch all along.

You think I don't remember what you put me through

But the only thing missing in my life was you.

You seem to think that you're always right

If that's true, where is your daughter, she's fighting with all her might.

You say I made your life miserable;

you hated the way I act

Even though you might not want to,

it's time you face the facts.

I was only 16, only human

I'm bound to mess up once in a while.

And when I finally do something right,

all I ask from you is a simple smile.

A little more "I you",

and a little less "smart ass"

It's hard for me to live up to

whatever you want me to be.

but it might make things a little better

once you accept me for me.

I wish you'd realize, you still have a daughter

Regardless, she still misses and s you a ton.

Once upon my childhood i was happy and free

I never felt the fear of destiny.

Not knowing what to think

not knowing what i know

i thought i would be happy

then why am I so low?

Being who i am is important to me

why should i care what is meant to be.

I care cause it's my life

I want so much more,

but i cant get past the things

that make me feel so torn.

Focus is what I need,

peace is what I thrive,

Someday maybe

I will be happy to be alive.

she convinces the world she has no problems

her smiles are happy but oh so rare

she thinks life will change so why even care.

day after day its getting worse

focused on her life and her curse.

will she eventually crack

and fall deeper

or bring her self up and be a speaker,

a speaker for herself

one who knows within

within her soul that is held together by a pin

so confused with the life that she lives

thinking there has to be something to dweal in.

Peace of mind is only a statement

wonder what its like or how i can make it

My mind is my own and in only i trust

cause all my feelings are so full of rust.

Its hard to feel, but easy to think

so thinking i shall do

till i make myself shrink.

koool they seem to come form a dark and hurt place and thats wat makes them so powerful

yes, too a point...but sometimes i just like to write.
I am not the best writer, but it's a, "i see the value sort of thing."

Im always thinking thats why i dont sleep much...I have other poems and stories but dont share a lot. Thanks for reading Dave

In relationships, as i look back

I always run away cause i feel im being attacked

what is wrong with me,

why do i leave

I think its because

it is hard for me to breath.

Not really knowing what is,

is a factor i think

that someday i shall live.



No one puts butterflys in my stomach

only a pain that makes me vomit.

I cant see past the guy themselves

but through them like in a microscope.

Am i too picky

or too protective?



I cant say my true feelings on throughout,

I have yet to sail on that boat.

I run cause i run,

maybe thats just who i am

someday i hope i can find my man.

these all seem to be focusin on pain and sufferin and thats kool makes them more insightful

hey sweet heart nice job venting ur pain. poems are a great way to manage anger...but i have a poem i would like to share with u and it comes from a kinder more loving place.

its been awhile:
i havn't seen u in about two years
because it was clear i had to dissappeear
but when i came back it brought ur eyes to tears
that single made me want to die
shit i didn't know i could make an angel cry and i love it when u kick me love and give me hugs and thank u miss for not holding a grudge
i got carried away with that boobonic cronic,black tar onix
gin and tonic it destaoyed my life
but this time boo help me doo it right.
you big green eyes caught me by suprise long ago
and i thought to myself shes the one lets take it slow
but that didn't happen and that insodent is what sent me packing
but now the time is right girl and lets get cracken
torebuild a love that should have happend

Wow, I wrote these quite some time ago.

you got some skills girl!

sometimes when i read things that i wrote long ago i think to myself whoa wtf. only a select few things that i have written have remained relevant to the person i am now. i think that sometimes it is good to bust out the old shit and just do a reality check as to how much i have grown and differ from the person i was when certain things were written. its kinda like rod stewart said (i thought the song blew when it came out, but now realize aint it the fucking truth)" i wish i knew what i know now when i was younger". i think it is probably true of anyone who has ever used writing as an outlet in whatever form it was expressed. we look back and consider the way we were feeling at the time and the events that caused said feelings , and for some of us ,if not all, that have used this outlet, it has gotten us though these times. see what i mean , writing this gibberish above just helped me through 5 whole minutes of brain melt